HELLO.
The Lord is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth!
If God were small enough to be understood,
He would not be big enough to be worshipped!:D
My Thoughts
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
ain't feeling any better this two days. still the same, pressured. i just know there are many things bothering me in my mind, but i just can't explain what are they. and the feeling just sucks, because i feel like sth's pressing on my heart. making me feel so hard to breathe. had PE today, and we learnt softball and i'm in group 3. and fff, i felt like a noob because i didn't even manage to run to the other end and come back. it's so embaressing(if i spelt the word wrongly, pardon me) and well, that isn't the main point): i feel so inferior, so dumb, so stupid. i'm just so not good at anything!):i'm feeling sad now. i feel hurt now. i feel like crying now. i feel so useless now. i don't feel like living on earth now. i feel like i'm such a bad friend to everyone now. i feel like i don't care for my friends at all now. i feel like a piece of trash now.
FRIENDS, i understand them but not totally at all. i don't care enough.
FAMILY, they don't understand me nor love me to the utmost.after all, i'm the EXTRA right?
STUDIES, my maths and studies suck totally. i don't have motivation.
LOVE, i love him, but i can't say it out. i just wait. i'm not good enough either.
this are all summarised. i can't say everything out. i need at least two days.
ALL THIS THINGS ARE MAKING ME GO CRAZY.
I'M DESPERATE FOR SOMEWHERE TO HIDE MYSELF.
I FEEL LIKE DYING. IT'S ALL DRIVING ME CRAZY. I HATE THIS WORLD. I WANT TO LEAVE THIS PLACE.
THE PAIN IS SLOWLY SEEPING THROUGH MY HEART.
ONE DAY, I WILL LEAVE AS I HAVE WISHED. I WILL VANISH.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
no one understands,