HELLO.
The Lord is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth!
If God were small enough to be understood,
He would not be big enough to be worshipped!:D
My Thoughts
Monday, January 22, 2007
hey hey. i'm actually in school now. and i'm really glad my best friends actually bothered. aha. thank you people, you all make me smile. but still, the emo-tic feeling in me isn't gone yet. i dread going home, i hate going home. i may seem really happy outside, but it's just that i haven't had my share of emotional outbursts yet): i'm stress enough as it is, and my brother's just demoralizing me, taunting me. he thinks it'll motivate me to work harder, but it doesn't. it just makes me feel more hurt and makes me feel like i'm just like a piece of trash.he says, "mass com no need pass maths meh? your english was so bad previously and you want to go to mass com?"
i say," i got 70"
he says," that is b4 you know?"
i say, " NO, it's A2"
he says, " so? it's not enough"
please la, he only got a c5 for his English.!
he just doesn't understand. he even said " you sure you're going tuition and not playing there?" for goodness sake! if i went there just to play. would i pay the fees by myself? i can't even buy the things that i like. or even a bag that i need, and he's not bothering! my goodness. i don't even know why i bother? but who cares, i know i study for myslef, not for him not for anyone else, but for me to have a better future ahead. so i have to perservere and go on, on this journey alone. i'll live on my own, i'll do things on my own, i'll think alone, i'll perservere alone! till then, i'll be alone, it'll be through my own that i win this race! <> okay, look i'm contradicting myself again!
life's like shit,
i'm so stressed up that i can't hold on anymore.
i'm going to break down.
i'm going to die down.
now i just pray that God will continue to give me
the passion, the determination, the motivation to go on.
and i believe he will.